Thank you so much for your reply to my legnthy issues. I am in regular therapy, in fact a visit tomorrow. My therapist is great and I really like him.

And yes, at this point everything that's not "normal" I still am considering a threat. My husband can't even go out of town before I'm convinced something terrible will happen and he can't be reached to deal with it while I will have to face it. Naturally I am fine but I'm not as confident in my abilities as I was before (in my 20s). I do take anti-anxiety medication and my husband is a Pharmacist so we know what's happening.

After the birth of my son, and really the diagnosis of his life-threatening food allergies I just kind of lost it (Christmastime 2013). Trouble is I don't know how to get myself back to where I was. Where's my confidence? I'm a strong woman, I had a high-risk pregnancy and post-pregnancy complications. I'm just not sure how to get back to that place unless it's confronting things I don't like/am afraid of. I'll speak to my therapist about this tomorrow as well.

I am a devout Christian but I am also very tolerant of others so I don't think I'm going to hell or anything like that.