It sounds like "everything" you feel, might feel, or imagine feeling is potentially troubling. Please read a blog I did for PsychologyToday on how a child learns that feelings are "user friendly" rather than threatening. It is at https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/conquer-fear-flying/201303/trip-emotion-world

If that is understood, then the next question is how to make up for what didn't happen to teach you, not just intellectually, but at a gut level, that experience is to be embraced.

As I write this, I'm reminded of my mother who grew up in a home and in a community where if you thought the wrong thing or felt the wrong thing or did the wrong thing, you were going to hell. As a result, "everything" was threatening other than what she controlled.

If everything out of her control was potentially threatening, consider the list:

heart rate
breathing rate
hunger
urination
defecation
sexual arousal
perspiration
acceleration forces (up, down, sideways)
spontaneous thoughts

Whenever she was aware of any of these natural physical sensations and mental experiences, she was subject to becoming anxious. Her anxiety become so great that it became expressed in physically painful spasms. At Duke, in Durham N.C., then at Johns-Hopkins, in Baltimore, no physical cause of her pain could be found.

She became so anxiety-ridden that she was hospitalized and given shock treatments. For a few weeks, her pains subsided. When they returned, she was again hospitalized and lobotomized. Though that ended the anxiety, it also ended much of her personhood.

From my point of view, religious belief that leads people to push aside, to deny, to self-censor natural emotions, natural hungers, spontaneous thoughts, etc., are - rather than good - essentially evil. We do not need to go to foreign lands to find primitive religious practices. We have them right here in the good old U.S of A.

Though, in the SOAR program, we can help a person reduce the release of stress hormone (that cause feelings) when flying, there also needs to be greater ability to accommodate experience, and for that, I believe you may need to be in one-to-one therapy or group therapy with a therapist who is highly experienced in dealing with trauma from a relational (not CBT) approach.