I feel most uncomfortable about being "light headed." My husband doesn't feel this at all so explaining it to him is difficult. 

With the elevator Id say going down was worse (we're talking 35 floors from my most recent experience last week) I felt like it was going too fast and then the dreaded "drop" feeling and it was only when I paid attention to the floors going up and down did I feel worse. We even came to the 52nd and I panicked and got out but we got back in with a couple and she was feeling  claustrophobic. I made her look at me and kinda coached her through it and it helped me more. Then we figured that if I had a task to do - like looking up something on my smartphone and not paying attention to the numbers it was vastly improved. I ordered the SOAR book and will begin reading soon. 

The Christmas of 2013 was extremely difficult for me, I suddenly lost all my confidence in myself and ability to deal with life in general. I still feel like I haven't been able to fully recovery self. I feel I depend way too much on my husband for support than I should. I don't like to be alone anymore. I'm afraid a flight will set me back to this phase. 


I didnt intend for this to get so involved.